The very thought of fatherhood again is nearly enough to send him spiraling into a panic attack, his nerves unable to deal with the idea that he's going to fuck up again, he's going to make the same mistakes he did with Chuck, there's going to be another child out there who shares half his genes who hates him and wishes they were never born.

How can he do that to someone?

But looking at Mako, knowing that she'll do what he wants despite her own wishes — if she's ever thought or wished about this before — makes something inside him crumble.

"Mako, sweetheart. I want whatever will make you happy. If you don't think you're ready for a baby then I won't ask you to carry it. If you want to, though, then... That's okay too."

His voice is a little choked up and his hands are shaking with fear, but he's serious.

"I'm not... I'm not going t make you do something you don't want to."